Choosing Not to Listen
Jeremy's always talking...
So yeah, clearly I don’t really have any idea what a pegasus doing a flying kick looks like. An image to continue refining, for sure!
But more to the point, I didn’t draw a comic last week because I just couldn’t. I couldn’t do much of anything last week. My mood and energy levels had been on a pretty severe slide through October and finally just bottomed out.
At least part of this was a side effect of some medication that I’m thankfully not taking anymore. Just getting that energy and motivation back was enough to lift my mood a thousand percent.
But of course, Jeremy wants to blame all these troubles on my innumerable shortcomings. And when I don’t have the energy to ignore him, things feel pretty rough.
Fortunately, I do have the energy to ignore him, so he can yammer on and on all he wants. It’s not like I can ever get rid of him for good—like it or not, he’s part of me.
But I can draw Peggy kicking him in the face! Which is fun, even if it’s not a particularly good drawing!
Has the change in season/weather/clock affected your mood at all? Have you been able to create through it?
Wishing you a great week filled with inspiration and the courage to follow it!
Big compassion to you for your physical and mental lowness lately! I can very much relate. Please do keep fending off Jeremy!! (And/or perhaps, in the spirit of IFS therapy/the book No Bad Parts, ask Jeremy what he’s trying to protect you from.)
And I’m bringing back this “Serenity Splash” poem from a little while ago—today I am saying these words to you (because, of course, you are a “wizard” too!):
If you’re a wizard,
you’re a wizard,
no matter how you feel.
If you’ve got magic,
it’s still in you
when it feels not real.
Hard times come;
your light feels gone,
but like the stars and sun,
your magic’s there,
inside you still.
Trust it, and hold on.
Peggy is all sorts of awesome and the kick is perfectly executed, excellent form! I wonder what type of karate Peggy studies? She’s probably a triple black belt :) On the season/time change, a big yes but in the “tween” stage. The dark mornings in between shifting times always get me and then when the time actually falls back and I can see sunlight first thing, I notice I am much happier. Jan/Feb are much tougher and I’ll break out my happy light. Wishing you a speedy return to feeling more grounded soon! It’s always good to see your art and words, whenever you feel like posting :)